Live in the Moment

I think so many times in life we are either living vicariously through our past or what we hope to be in our future. Instead of really living for the day, we get caught up in yesterday and tomorrow. But what are we doing for today? I struggle with waiting. I have always had an issue with patience. I am always wanting my tomorrow to come faster, sooner. But the days really do pass by quickly and if I don't live for today the days will soon be gone and I will regret not soaking up every minute of them. It may be hard in this season of my life as I finish my degree and have to wait to get married. It definitely doesn't help when my friends are getting married and having kids already. It can get discouraging at times, but I know who I am waiting for and he is oh so very worth it. It makes me want to rip my hair out at times and scream in frustration, because I desperately long for the day I walk down the aisle and am joined with my love for better and for worse. But I know my day is coming. Until then I will wait and live for the moment. This is a poem I wrote about it.

Live for the Moment

All around pressure abound,

Of what to do with my future.

The questions; they haunt me,

As I try to go on with life.

When will you marry?

What will you do?

Where will you teach?

Why are you waiting?

How will you use your degree?

Sometimes I just want to scream,

As they bombard me with worries,

And uncertain dreams.

I've gotten to the point

Where I respond

"I don't know; God does. Ask Him."

I know I will find out in time,

But why can't that be enough?

Yet I find, it sometimes isn't enough.

In an instant culture,

I'm brainwashed to want it now,

To want it fast.

But some things take time,

And can't be slapped together

As if it's a McDonald's Happy Meal.

So I come to pray,

"Lord, help me to trust you

With my future and wait

On your timing, not mine."

Because I try to live in tomorrow

Before it's even here,

Instead of focusing on today.

Yesterday is gone and

Tomorrow is not guaranteed.

All I have is today.

So when it's gone,

What will I have to show for today?

Help me, my Lord, to live in the moment.

To take joy in each day

And what it brings.

Not to worry about tomorrow,

But to make this moment, right now, count.